how i feel when depressed
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Lately I’ve been very worn out and depressed again. It’s like a chore to get up and move around even for a little bit. My legs are aching thanks to the post office holding my mail and not having my package there :/. I feel like I’m on this roller coaster of emotions lately. Like finally my heart is releasing emotions but at a time when I need to get my act together. I finally cried over losing grandma in a way. I even cried a bit about having a good friend that no one seems to like either. Its like I’m torn about him really. I’ve been sleeping mostly and staying up until 2 in the morning too. I just feel so tired plus how the neighbor really rubbed me wrong it made me feel even worse. I think I’ll definitely stay far away from her. She’s so negative I don’t need to be that way. Alone and miserable. I have too much good things going and a future as well. I need to keep going regardless what she said or anyone else. I just hope this sleeping spell goes away, and the dry spell too in the friend department.
Right now I’m tired, flustered, and mad. It’s been almost two weeks my car hasn’t been back here let alone its been 3 months that I don’t have my license since people refuse to help me knowing I don’t have enough money to go to a school. I no longer have the money for insurance both life and car all of it went into my car and most was important but now I feel some wasn’t i.e. wax kit and other aesthetic things for my car. I don’t care if the car isn’t shiny enough or whatever I need a car to get around to get a job, which isn’t coming through for me. Since I was 16 I still haven’t gotten a job. Since I was freaking 16!! I’ve been asking people to help me and all I get is I can’t or you should had done that already. Life isn’t easy at all. I had to take care of my grandma since I was in high school and that almost cost me my diploma. Now I’m struggling to make ends meet and I need new glasses and get my teeth extracted. I don’t even have enough money to go around its like all of sudden I need this or your grandma owes that. Make matters worse I can’t find her W-2 forms anywhere for this year. I had them together and now I can’t find them. Its like one thing or another and I’m fed up. I can’t live on like this I need to repair both houses and find a way to sell them and houses aren’t selling at all here. It’s just like the job market. Stagnant in some areas and moving up in others and here it isn’t going anywhere but down. Just hope and pray I can get out of this place and get a job somewhere to pay bills and grandma care.
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