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Well I know my record here has been rather spotty. As well this is a blog about my life lol.

Things have gotten good and some areas not so. I’m still unemployed but thanks to my best friend she is helping me get my car out asap so I can get a job that is willing to hire me. I’m low on cash and the personal care home is using a Lawyer to attack me anytime I’m late on rent. I’m only 2 weeks late within that month it is due. I never pay too late unless something came up. For the past couple of months they have been jerking me around. Claiming I’m abusing my grandma. If not stealing from her and if not that threatening to become her payee while not crediting me the amount I overpaid time to time. I have had it with these people and with the mechanic giving me the runaround with my car. One minute it’s done the next it’s not. One minute I owe nothing next I owe 200. I’m hoping this will be the last 200 they will get out of me and I want my car that day I want to know if all it needs is stickers placed it on I want to be there to see it get in my car and drive home.

Now for the love life I guess. Well it’s been effy. Loverboy and me are on the rocks and I just no longer care to be beached by the friendship. An older man is trying his way through but I’m not interested in him due to the age gap and his temperament. He might seem nice and caring like a father but I don’t need someone to dictate what I can and cannot do if I want to be in a relationship with him. Too restrictive to me. I’m still young and I want to enjoy myself before I buckle down with a career, so why not explore myself this summer with a job and live life as a 20 something. While he on the other hand is 22 plus me and is already set in his ways and wants me to himself. :/ Not so much for me. Sure I wouldn’t mind being a relationship but I rather have a choice in who I want to be with. Just because you are attracted to me doesn’t me I have to go out with you or be with you. But at least I met someone really nice and cute and I’m more attracted to him than the older guy and we get a long great. Well as of now we do. He’s more closer to age range and more up my alley. He respects my bounds and wishes vs. the older guy who is making fences of where and what I can do to get his love. But I hope that wasn’t confusing lol.

So besides that I lost some inches and I’m hoping to keep going to reach another goal. So besides I’m a licensed driver and I missed out on so many jobs because of the car and the mechanic, I’m sure I’ll be updating this saying hey I got a job and a boyfriend. 😀 But lets hope for job 1st!.

Take care everyone!

 

Well got off the phone with the jealous one and they are disappointed with me. Oh well I told them, it is my life it is my decision. I made the mistake of telling him everything going on with me and the current target of my affections lol. Yeah my current target. I was wrong by telling him how I felt and what was happening. Like grandma said be careful of who you tell things because just because they are your friend doesn’t mean they really want the best for you. Some people like to break others up by making a situation worse than it really is or they like to make you think something is there when it isn’t. Just like grandma said about this guy he could get any girl in the world I mean he’s quite a handsome guy by the way but chooses to make it work as friends and see where we go from here. As many times I made him upset and made him feel like I don’t care about him and still he wants to make it work with me. Either he’s desperate or he really wants to be with me or be friends. But I get told he’s desperate and just stringing me along for the ride. Well if I get heartbroken it’s my fault then. I put the bullet in my own foot right? But I’m willing to take the blame, the disappointment and the pain with it. So be it. Life is full of pain right? Maybe I am a masochist I’m probably am really. But he seems not to want to let go and refuses to shake me off either. So why not? Why not talk to him and see where we go from here for all I know maybe he is the catch or not. At least I can learn more about me and him and see how to handle things if he isn’t but I’m friends or dating someone else. I just find it interesting how I can manage do disappoint a lot of people. I’m used to it now, I disappoint anyone who doesn’t agree with me, doesn’t approve of whatever. But its life I’m not gonna please everyone I see. End of random part of day lol.